FINALS ARE OVER!!!!

So I figured finals would be easy? what a freshman asumption. right? Well i made it, i had 7 finals total. music theory, music therapy, aural skills, keyboarding, english/shakespeare, sight singing, and psychology. It was ridiculous. But now im done and I just get to go home and enjoy the cold snugglyness of winter and the season while stressing about the lack of money i have and my current relationship status of oh wait.. yes thats right single again. this will make exactly 23 christmas's with no companion of any kind. I know I am supposed to be all patient and focused on the Lord and only him rather than thinking of what I don't have and what I could have, but it sure is hard not to when EVERYONE around you is seriously getting engaged. Jenni, Jared and Cami, Ben and Jessica, and Im sure a thousand more are too. But what can you do right? Not to mention that I just found out that I still won't get to see my marine friend S in febuary because the stupid marines are so stupid!!! he is now having to go to hawaii for like 3 months. I mean seriously is it so much to ask the universe to just keep in in one place long enough for his friends to be able to see him? I feel like I have been so good and so patient while he has been gone and normally i would have been so much more dramatic but I truly have been so good but I guess I am going to just have to be more. I must say that ultimately after ranting I am able to think a little more logically, so life truley is amazing. On monday was my birthday and I spent over 10 hours sitting on my couch studying but people came over and were so sweet!!! The whole day was great, first I got ROSES that would be number 2 roses from a guy (hahaha) but seriously it made the whole day so good, mostly because it was so unexpected, it was from that marine friend that i don't get to see, not something i would expect him to do which made it so good. then some friends brought me a cake and i got a scarf and chocolate from some other firends, there are some seriously amazing people in my life. that i can never deny and never will!!! not to mention that my NY family seriously warms my heart everytime i think of them i wish i could see them and we could all just go swinging in central park. who knows. Life is for the most part great. and I am so happy to be in school, and it might sound cliche but God and church and the spirit and my testimony has grown so much, but I need to now adopt a little bit more patience and achieve a more accepting attitude like i had before in NY. its a hard balance to find when you feel that the church offers the priesthood and doctrine of a supreme being who has created everything and who only wants us to grow and become better than we were before through his ordinances and covenants and through lifes experience, and then also to accept it when the people you love dont see that and then not to judge them for the things they do that you believe are hindering the will of god, but i guess all things whether religion or not are a balancing learning act. :) all is well and finals are over thank heavens and im excited for christmas!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!